A brief visit to Scotland

As it happens my background is not overly complicated but also not extremely simple, so I will describe it briefly just to make you understand why I would go back to Scotland for only ten days and without any other reason but to see my dad. I grew up mainly in Germany and have a south african mother and german father. Those two split up when I was about 7 or so but they continued living in the same community - Siebenlinden. When I was 13 my parents gave me and my sister the choice between staying in the community I had grown up in or moving away with my mother to another community called Findhorn. I had been craving a change of scenery as the public school I was attending didn't really give me what I needed in terms of a healthy social surrounding and there were not many people my age in Siebenlinden itself. In summary I felt happy to get the chance to experience something different, which would couple with the fact that I would learn english which in retrospect changed my life significantly. So during my stay in Granada my father contacted me and inquired if I would be willing to come to Scotland for 10 days after meeting my brother in Amsterdam as he was taking care of my sister while my other parents were away travelling. I had not seen him in months and would not have had a chance to really see him for the coming 3 months because of my travelling. Hence I happily accepted the offer and embarked on the little trip from Amsterdam to Findhorn, a little picturesque fishing village built in the distinctive scottish style. Spending time there gave me the chance to catch up with my lovely father before leaving for the much bigger trip to the US. I also had the chance to catch up with some friends from my school which I had, for the most part, completely lost touch with while travelling. Of course travelling can completely change who you are as you tend to create yourself in different ways to become more adaptable and more at home where ever you go, that is what happened to me anyway. This change of mindset and worldview changed the way I looked at things back home, it made me value some things more and some things less. I started noticing things that I never before thought about. One thing that I learnt for myself was that though I want and will try to be as good as I can be to any person in that moment, there can only be a few people that I really trust with all my heart. Most people in my eyes could become one of the ones I really trust but it is usually a lengthy and/or intense process. A personal journey which I cannot embark on with everyone. So those few completely transparent relationships I have I want to really nourish, so that they don't die away. This does not mean that I write to those few people all the time, but that when we do see each other - which happens rarely as these people are scattered about on the globe - we enjoy it fully and live every moment of it. In a way in those relationships I don't really need to try very hard because it all just happens naturally. Like the lovely chinese proverb which says that "When the winds of change blow, some people build walls and others build windmills" I want allow and aid my own personal growth through which I might inspire others. And as of now I use travelling as my windmill to propel myself into this journey of life.